My editor/publisher pointed this out, and I wonder if I'm the only one who suffers from it.
Eric, he said, your short stories feel like they're ~going~ somewhere. But your novels fall flat. You need to bring that same voice to your longer pieces.
And so I'm trying in my latest WIP to do just that -- bring out my short-story (and bloggerly) voice.
Still, there's a roadblock there. It's an insecurity. I have moments of clarity and scenes that pop out in the right voice, but other scenes are flat and balmy and tasteless as lipstick on a cow.
I recently read Gaiman's Anansi Boys. I read that book really, really, REALLY slow, and I read every word of every chapter and the forwards and afts.
I read it all because his voice is so playful, and for years I've tried to be a "serious" writer for my novels, but unleash the beast on the shorts.
Unleash the beast on the shorts. That's sorta funny.
For instance, I wrote a short piece entitled The Devil Gave Me Autumn in my flippiest voice, and one of my readers, and I've had a few say this, mentioned this story was the most Eric of the stories she read.
That's your voice, she said.
And it's this voice, my blogger voice, my hee haw yee haw voice.
But then I read McCarthy and think, I can write like that!
And I can, in small bursts, but it's hard to maintain that droll voice throughout.
I read King and think, I can write like that!
And I can, but his overly-detailed scenes and 200kw tomes elude me.
Elude has only one L, by the way. Inside joke.
I read Gaiman and think, I can write like that!
And I can, and I can sustain it, but after a while I feel too clownish and insecure and start checking my zipper, yep, still zipped up, and do I have a booger, and gads, I think I better delete all this crap before someone reads it, eh.
I don't know. I've been writing for YEARS, and still finding my voice.
I'm wondering: Am I the only one? Do you question yourself as you write, try to still that voice that says, LET ME WRITE!
Do you say, No, no, the world's not ready for you. Hush up little voice and write like they say write.